It’s been a while since I’ve been at the point of explosion and I try so hard not to get to this point. All my emotions are everywhere and I can no longer control them. It sucks to always make yourself available to everyone for anything and can never get that in return. I honestly don’t need half of what I give for others in return just an ear every now and again… I feel so drained and so pulled in every direction I can tell if I’m coming or going. But I guess what happens when you always trying to be concerned and protective of everyone you love and care about…..