It seems like yesterday that I lost my first favorite lady. And each year seem more hurtful than the last. I tried to find things to throw myself into and try not to think so much about her but it’s not working. I tried to reach out to the small circle of friends I have but funny as it may seem none have been available this year. I feel myself sinking not really talking or responding to text and just sleeping. My kids have made their plans for tomorrow and as always try to include me but I don’t want to mess up their holiday. I hate this time of the year and I always wish I could close my eyes sleep and wake up once the new year is here…….. Uggh Grandma why did you have to leave me so soon???? I miss you….. Love Rita